A Mother's Bond

The connection we have with our children  is very powerful. The bond can not be broken. It is a love like no other. A love that speaks from the heart with a very powerful intuition.

God made us carry them in our bodies for almost 10 months. This pregnancy process is a bonding mystery. Feeling the baby move and it can actually respond when you talk to them. I remember my babies giving me kicks of assurance when I asked if they are ok in there. What a magical feeling it is.

The bonding continuous as we hear the first cry that pierces our hearts, nursing them, waking up at night and going through days with very limited sleep. Stirring at them to see if we'll see a body part actuall grow instantly. All the smiles and crying only builds up a stronger bond etc.

We get soo attached to them that even leaving them home with our husbands is scary. Yet, we have to trust God and pray that we meet them alive when we return.

I realized that this mother child bond is the same way God wants us to be with Him. God gives us His Holy Spirit to be our helper when we receive Christ into our hearts. The Holy Spirit bonds us to God because we have it in us as our helper. The difference is we separate from Him when we keep on sinning.

He promised never to leave us alone yet, we turn from Him. He wants to direct our every step of the way but, our free will gives us the choice to decide whom to follow.

A mother always wants to be a helper to her children. We want to be their eyes and in their brains making sure they don't get hurt. Yet, we have to let them grow at some point. We have to let their little brains realize that there is a time for everything.

A time to let them make choices and learn from them. A time to make mistakes and a time to be responsible for our actions.

A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, (Ecclesiastes 3:2 NIV)

We had to leave our kids behind for the first time for a short vacation. We have done so before but just to be hours within reach. This time we had to be out of the country and a lot of anxiety came in.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6, 7 NIV)

Thanks to my dad and very special friends we trust for watching them. This Scripture spoke very loud to me as a help it in heart while gone.

What hit me most was the thought of what if? Yes, what if something bad should happen to us and we don't make it back. Putting everything in place can be nerve racking as we realized that God actually has total control.

We think we have control when we are around them. Putting God aside and wanting to do the best we can. This is what a good mother does but life will be better if we invite God into our nurturing.

I had to explain to my 4 and 2 year olds that they will never be alone. God is always with them even when mommy and daddy are not around. I've taught them to call the name of Jesus when they are afraid. 

I pray that they keep this in mind and use it. To pray often even when I'm not there to  instruct them to.

As I'm hugging and kisses them assuring  them that everything will be ok my heart won't stop racing with anxiety. 

Njuamboh, my 4 year asked me if we won't be coming back. This question did not help with my anxiety. I had to look at her in the eyes and said " we plan on coming back but remember that you are never alone okay. God is with you always and remember to pray always. Be a good big sister to your sister and make sure she takes her medications."

We hugged each other and she stayed around following me until we left. I was going to miss her for a couple of days and so was she. I had to trust God on keeping us safe and reuniting us as a family.

It was hard putting scripture into practice as I told her. Yet, trusting God is all I have.

I turned my anxiety into prayers as I prayed for them all the time while gone.